feeling1

i understand currently i dont have money a lot... so she cannot waste it for happy and married together. i very understand everything b4 she told me that. why i still wanna hold on her again, why i don want just let go.... even in the future she also not im the one...
i really scare hurt and sad.... is very pity... i cant do my work always keep tear out from my eyes...
can god pls help me?
can anyone of here can help me?
handsome now a day in the world is useless....
is that handsome ppl is useless?

A deep feeling

Feel something will be happen in the moment, don know is the true or not? may be i should really brave to face it... if not something happen myself also cannot control... what kind of technique can i use to? is that i still have some secret technique to protect my feeling?

that is really complicated for me...

the hurt i will never forget

today is the first day we broke up... she agree that to give me time to recover and success to the business. i admit that i really bad to her since she together with me. i hope i can make something to her. i really feel the tears, when i driving, take a bath, stand infront of lift, why i don wan tell her the truth.....
i always blame myself what i doing to hurt her.... successful and strong man. can i be? can i make it?

i really love u.....